Thursday, March 4, 2010
pessimistic
today started out reasonably well
slept once i entered the class.
did the el thing and then
started to do my own things.
DnT was quite fun.
but then thanks to X
i gotta seat alone.zz
sometimes i wonder,
if i didnt _______
maybe all this would
not have happened.
now,i cannot stand it alr.
i'm not a perfect person,
nor are you.
i cannot stop what you
want to do or think.
however, what you are doing
is affecting people around
you. you make things difficult
for me(at least).
no one should know who i'm
talking about and no one
should:x
but then, i would greatly
appreciate that you yourself
find out that what you are
doing is really annoying.
now, i wonder if i can even
pass my O's.
everything seem so....far.
the goals i set begin to
seem unrealistic. tests
after tests i begin to fail.
people tell me that it's not
too late to start now but then
who are you kidding??
i know myself.
anw, recently got the mood
to study. did some work in
class after a long time:D
wanna sms X. hope X is at
home:)
where can i find someone who
understands me? it's difficult.
but then...
trust is given to all friends of
mine. however, some misused
it. luckily, many didn't. those
are the friends i want to keep.
but, each day we seem to move
further and further apart.
i really want to be with you
guys, have fun..
but, i simply can't do it
like i did last time.
hopes pinned on me are great
and right now, i'm just
crossing it out.
i can feel that even my uncles
feel somehow disappointed in me....
Labels: i wonder if there's a word to explain how i feel now.
jun wen at 3:19 PM