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Tuesday, March 30, 2010

TIRED TTM.

although things are taking
a turn for the better
(slightly), still bthh.

whywhywhy...
it always occur to me that
i've alot of questions
unanswered,cuz i cant find
the answer.

i'm seldom truely happy now.
mostly, i smile just to
entertain people. you can see.
very easily irritated now.

trying my best to stay awake
throughout the day listening to
the class.

phy sucks today.
spoil the damn spring.
paid 60c for it...zzz

hmm..
i'm constantly thinking about
everything that's happening
around me. i see selfish people,
thinking always for themselves.
i see A LOT of unhappy people.
and i see people complaining
about small lil things when
they are much much better off.

why can't the complacent people
ever learn to cherish.
people who are free of
worries complain that
life is boring and sucks blah...

spending my time unwisely.
there's some motivation
here and there..

i just hope i can go far
enough before i collapse.

i feel that i'm not cherishing
everything and starting to take
my cousins for granted.
they are the ones who can really
make me smile. and they are the
ones who really make me feel
cared for. i hope that's how they
feel also.

wonder if heaven or hell is better
than earth...

sometimes when i do things,
i pause and ponder.

maybe i should spend more
time with my cousins.

AND,
FUCK THE OM. DAMN PISSED WITH HIM AND
HIS FUCKING DOG.
ASKED THE DOG WHETHER HE CAN CALL
MR.REMESH AND SEE WHERE HE IS AND THEN
THE LJ OM COME AND SAY I MAKE ALOT OF
NOISE.KNNPCB!
THEN SAY WHAT IF WANT FIND GO FIND MYSELF.
EH KNNCCB I CAN FIND I WILL ASK YOU HELP
ARH. FUCKING DOG. KNN THE HANDPHONE CAN
DUN WANT USE. TAKE OUT HAOLIAN. PIECE OF
SHIT.

i don't mind anyone telling this to the cb
people. freaking pissed.
i ask them for help and say me noisy.
knn dog. never leash then bark like
fuck. got this LJ people in this fucking
school. no wonder this school sucks.

FML.

jun wen at 5:28 PM

Sunday, March 28, 2010

do you feel it?

one word to describe
my feelings.

SAD.

everytime i'm with friends,
i force a smile so that i
will not be anti-social.

no one seems to notice how
i feel.
or no one actually cares?

whatever the case, it doesn't
help at all even to know which
is the truth.

today is the 3rd day without it.

went to visit my great-grandmother.
CCK cemetery there.

there is sadness in my eyes,
but do you see it?
does anyone see it?

people are forcing me to do
what i don't want to.
circumstances are making life
difficult for me.

i regard some people as friends.
but do they? not LES,but others.

it seems that everyone is just
putting on a mask and hides
their knives behind their smile.
when you turn around,they just
simply stab you in the back and
pretend that nothing has happened.

there's many things going on me.
nothing is going in my favor.
not in school,
not at home.

easily irritated,frustrated.

trouble is already knocking on
my door.
it seems that this is inevitable.

gonna face it MY way.
it's been quite some time i really
made something go totally my way.
this time, i just want trouble to
go away, never come back.
trouble doesn't come alone.
they come in numbers, far greater
than you imagine.

all these rants and i still don't
feel any better.
FML is just a plain line.
it doesn't make me feel any better.

trying not to think about anything
except studies and cousins.
friends...

i lost someone i consider a friend.
i don't know whether i'm a friend to
the person. gonna let fate take over.
there's nothing i can do anymore.

i'm living in a world where i can't
make decisions for things anymore.

jun wen at 6:41 PM

when things go wrongg.

trouble came to find me.
damn.
FML. nothing is going right.
when i want things to go left,
it goes right.

stoning and doing nothing
ain't gonna help.
but then sometimes by helping
myself, i get into deeper
shit.

don't know what to do!!

jun wen at 1:07 AM

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

:(:(

are you getting tired?

if you are, i'm very sorry.

had a very interesting talk
with ms harti straight after
her lesson.
i hope i wont receive her call:x

fancy telling someone that he had
made the wrong choice!
what an irony.
LOL!

gotta run:D

Labels: i miss you.

jun wen at 10:26 PM

Monday, March 22, 2010

water and oil.

today was a normal day
said 'HI' to someone:D

then after school didnt
stayback and the damn
person go scold E and W.
WTF.
i run away got what to do
with them sia. stupid BITCH.
she thinks she got something
then we cannot touch her?
she gonna make me go for
dentention. waste my time.
and,ask her stop trying to
say i make her upset alr.
she knows what she did then
always hide what she did and
then make other's look like
they are in fault.

zzz.
irritated. not going to be the
lil' good boy to her alr.
sometimes it makes me laugh at
the incapability of supporting
your points to pin my mistakes.
i made you speechless sometimes.
so,stop looking for trouble.

jun wen at 6:16 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010

little gay shit.

to the someone.
you know who you are.

if you have something
against me, come straight
to me. stop being such a
coward and chatter behind
people's back.
you are just a loser.
fucking hypocrite.

i had been nice to you
little fucker.
but then no more.
you don't fucking understand
people and then start to spread
your ego like no one's business.

i wonder how you make friends.
are your friends wearing a lil
mask to hide what they really think?
if they are, then so fucking sad for
you.

from the start, i don't even know how
i offended you or you just simply want
to find someone to spread rumors about
and feel good about it.

no matter how good your studies are,
you will still be a failure.
you are not to be considered a friend
to anyone. you are just a piece of shit.

and if you don't like someone's face
you can choose to not look.
fyi,you think that you look v nice?
in fact, you look even worse.

you'll be backstabbed one fine day.
and may it be your best friends who
did it. then will you learn your
fucking lesson.

gonna stop for you.

Labels: to change for the better.

jun wen at 6:36 PM

can't stop,won't stop.

went to sentosa ytd.
then went straight to
uncle's house to celebrate
cousin's bday:D
after that, went to catch a 11.05
movie
then went home do hw until
3am then sleep.

woke up today at 12nn.
damn tied.
i want to stop thinking about all
the things. but i just can't.
its easy to tell others to stop.
but then it's definitely not that
easy to ask yourself to.

summary= FML.
nothing else.

everything doesn't go my way.
and i mean EVERYTHING.
what more can i do?
going to MAC study soon.

reasons are nothing but
excuses to cover up you
misdoings.

Labels: hope i did not disappoint you.

jun wen at 1:29 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2010

truely,madly,deeply tired.

woke up at 7 cuz
his parents coming home
at 11am. wtf.
somemore he said he need
to tidy up our mess when we
did not even create.
and,he need 4 hours to clean
up and sleep?!

its not like your parents come
home and then you cannot sleep?
zzz. slept at close to 5.
cannot stand it alr.
BBQ ytd was fun.
reached his house at bout 3.

slacked around playing and then
went to sleep.

woke up rudely at 7am
went home to get more rest.
and X said i was i PIG!! LOL!

woke up at 1 plus, with 2 miss calls.
ROFLs!!
that's all.

andand,there would be a trip to
Sentosa this SAT for all SLs:DD
gonna look forward to that:D

Labels: if a song could get me you.

jun wen at 3:39 PM

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

yes,i know

i woke up at 10.30
when lessons actually start
at 8. LOL! gg liao.
cfm get scolded one.
blame it on me playing bball
ytd and returning home at 12mn.

HAHAHHAAHAHAHA!!
gonna spend some time at home
doing hw. if not i will feel
damn guilty lor.LOL!

i hate being left dangling in the
middle of nowhere. the feeling sucks.

nothing much to say alr.
feeling damn cheerful after
reading X blog:DDDDD
hahahaha!! we got the same title!!
HAHAHA!!

Labels: i'll be you wish, your dream and your fantasy.

jun wen at 10:33 AM

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

i will remember you.

yes. i'm talking bout you.
LOL!
so don't get a shock when
you see this

seems like your life is
great. you intro-ed many
songs to me,like

still around-3Oh!3
i will remember you-ryan canberra
live like we're dying-the script
etc etc...

wish you all the best:)

anw, today is tue and i have nothing
much to do except hw and computer?
parents want me to go cousin's
house to study for Os.
they say i at home cannot study
keep using the computer.
haishhh..

gonna start on the holiday
assignments.
compliments of ayanisaa.
LOL!

buhhbyess~~

jun wen at 1:13 PM

Monday, March 15, 2010

wasted.

hmmm. just came back from
SL camp ytd.
still feeling v letargic.

planned to go gym today but
then rained so didnt go.
cousin's sick. damn. sounds
like food poisoning.
GET WELL SOON!!

recently the weather is holy.
its damn hot lor.

and i'm pressurized to study.
now of course no mood study.
cuz still in camp mood and
holidays. should enjoy for
a day or two before starting
to mugg again:D

everytime the sun rise,
its a new start to all.
but then i feel that it isn't
the case just for me.
bad things keep coming my way.
trouble keeps knocking on my door
and i'm expected to ignore it.

i wish for tomorrow to be a better
day but seems like it isn't gonna be.
people are getting pessimistic by the
day and i don't really see why not.
i wasn't like that.
and i'm trying not to be like that.

it's all about you~McFly.

but is it?

saw you today and you smiled:)
me smiled back to you:)
it made my day:)

smile~~
that's the least i can do.

jun wen at 10:21 PM

Thursday, March 11, 2010

I will remember you.

did very badly in CA1.
gonna start working hard!
no more constant partying.

CONCENTRATE!!

i find myself at a loss
of what to do. i realised
a change in me,so did my
cousins,uncles and my
grandpa.

escaping is no solution to
anything. gotta face up to
it one day.

everyday i spend, i feel like
i'm just wasting it.
i don't feel ready for the O's.
i wasted 1 year already.
i don't want to waste another.

nothing seems to go right for me.
everything is turning out to be
bad..
it's hard to cope.

WELL,THIS IS LIFE.
so,get over it.

and,i got a feeling that X will
be smacked:)

btw, felt the push to do revision.
no more joking around!

Labels: i feel so hollow.

jun wen at 7:04 PM

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

smile!!

today was a sucky day.
my seat was changed to
beside XXX...zz!!
very irritated by that
decision. F*** her lah.
totally spoiled my mood.

and esmond did a damn funny
thing at physics lab. ROFL!

and tml nid go stage for the
in-touch. another one of
her crazy decisions. zz!!
@#$@#$%^&*!!!

whatever lahhh... dun feel like
going up tml.

ciao...

jun wen at 4:45 PM

Sunday, March 7, 2010

hi:D
went to icon village
for tea at sakae:DD
and my aunt bought
cologne for us:DDD

see ya~~

jun wen at 7:42 PM

Thursday, March 4, 2010

pessimistic

today started out reasonably well
slept once i entered the class.
did the el thing and then
started to do my own things.

DnT was quite fun.
but then thanks to X
i gotta seat alone.zz

sometimes i wonder,
if i didnt _______
maybe all this would
not have happened.

now,i cannot stand it alr.
i'm not a perfect person,
nor are you.
i cannot stop what you
want to do or think.
however, what you are doing
is affecting people around
you. you make things difficult
for me(at least).

no one should know who i'm
talking about and no one
should:x

but then, i would greatly
appreciate that you yourself
find out that what you are
doing is really annoying.

now, i wonder if i can even
pass my O's.
everything seem so....far.
the goals i set begin to
seem unrealistic. tests
after tests i begin to fail.
people tell me that it's not
too late to start now but then
who are you kidding??
i know myself.

anw, recently got the mood
to study. did some work in
class after a long time:D

wanna sms X. hope X is at
home:)

where can i find someone who
understands me? it's difficult.
but then...

trust is given to all friends of
mine. however, some misused
it. luckily, many didn't. those
are the friends i want to keep.
but, each day we seem to move
further and further apart.
i really want to be with you
guys, have fun..
but, i simply can't do it
like i did last time.

hopes pinned on me are great
and right now, i'm just
crossing it out.
i can feel that even my uncles
feel somehow disappointed in me....

Labels: i wonder if there's a word to explain how i feel now.

jun wen at 3:19 PM

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Future Love.

recently v tired.
can stop sleeping
in class..zzz
dotA-ing almost
everyday.damn sia.
i'm living life like
there's no O levels.
wth sia.

today, cheska was my
jukebox:D
she kept me entertained
when i was damn bored:D
thanks~

hahaha!! she said all the
songs i listen to is emo.
ROFL lah!

anw, things are not going
as planned.
going bball later to relax.
going out to make new
spectacles later.

ciao~~

Labels: SIMPLICITY IS THE PEAK OF BEAUTY